Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Why do I find it hard to write the next line?

Oh, I want the truth to be said
(Also, I can't see very well right now).

This is a bit of a departure from the posts I usually write; a little more personal.  I decided to write this for two reasons: 1)  To share my experience here, in case anyone else ever goes through the same thing and 2) In hopes of hearing from someone else who can share his/her experience with me.    I will begin at the beginning.

It was 2003.  I woke up one Friday morning, and my eye was kind of sore.  I ignored it, thinking that I must have rubbed it too hard in my sleep.  Not a normal occurrence, but plausible.  The next day my eye was a bit more sore, red, and a little sensitive to light.  Thinking I must have inadvertently injured my eye, I ignored it, hoping that I would feel better the next morning.  

The next day I went to the movies.  I don't remember what I saw, but I do remember that it was a painful experience.  Being in a dark room with nothing but light from the movie hurt.  I really must have rubbed my eye too hard.  When I went to bed that night I had a hard time watching tv.  When I closed my eyes, the light from the tv still bothered me.  It was weird, but I figured I would feel better in the morning.  

The next morning I woke up, and I couldn't open my right eye without feeling immense pain.  It should have been a clue that I needed to go to the doctor immediately, but I am stubborn like that.  I stumbled my way into the shower to get ready for work.  I couldn't turn the light on.  I couldn't open my eye.  I definitely couldn't drive.  I was in bad shape.  

I had my roommate call a doctor for me.  I couldn't open my eyes at all.  I could drive, and I certainly couldn't look up a number and dial a phone.  I was a complete mess.  I went to my general practitioner who immediately referred me to a ophthalmologist.  I clearly  remember sitting in the car with a bandanna wrapped around my head and sunglasses on while my eyes were shut.  The sun was still too bright for me.  I thought I was going to go blind.  

The nurse took me into the first room and asked me to open my eyes so she could take my eye pressure.  I don't deal well with this request on a normal day (you stare at a dot and the blow a poof of air into your eye, if you have never had this done).  I couldn't even open my eye here to attempt this.  I didn't know how the actual eye exam was going to happen.  The longer I sat waiting to see the doctor, the worse the scenarios playing in my head became.  What was going on, and was it going to get better?  I was sure I was the only person to ever go through this in the world, and I was silently freaking out.

{Part 2 Coming Soon}

13 comments:

E said...

Oh gosh, I am on pins and needles about your eyes. Ah!

Bad Joan said...

Shame! It sounds like a migraine. Hope you feel better soon!

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Adele said...

I'm waiting with baited breath to find out....
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colleen said...

i have blepharitis, not a fun condition but you can get it under control, and i understand the freaking out. we're only given one set of eyes and you don't want something to happen to them. hope the diagnosis in part 2 isn't too severe...

Emmy said...

Fingers crossed it's a good ending...

rooth said...

Yikes, this sounds scary. And I hate that eye pressure machine too. I can't imagine how frightened you must have felt

Katie said...

What?! I'm dying to know what happened...

Erin said...

Erin!!! Yes, I'm dying to know what it was but I'm so, so sorry that this happened!!! It sounds horrible!!

shopgirl said...

This does sound scary. You sound like me. I hate going to the doctor's! Waiting to see what happened next.

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shooting star said...

am worried reading this.....looking out for part 2

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BalancingMama (Julie) said...

Way to leave everyone hanging!

I heard they have eye pressure machines in some offices now that don't need the awful puff of air! Let's hope they all get those soon.

Heather said...

Wow, I'm so sorry to hear this. I hope you're OK and are feeling better now!

B said...

omg cliffhanger!! im guessing youre better since you're blogging, but either way im sorry you had to go through such a scary ordeal. glad you had a good friend there to help you!

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